Finding my own nitch!

I see all these amazing people! I can't help but wish I could be them. I know that I have to be my own person. But it is hard... I think it would be easier if someone could tell me that I'm amazing.

Stop this train!

I hope this old train breaks down, then I could take a walk around. And, see what there is to see. And time is just a melody. All the people in the street, walk as fast as their feet can take them. I just roll through town. And though my windows got a view, the frame I'm looking through, seems to have no concern for now.
So for now, I need this here, old train to break down. Oh please just, Let me please breakdown.

Sway to the music!

For the holidays, my dad got me a Jack Johnson dvd. So now, I'm listening to him all the time. Exception when I was sick, which has been the past 3 or so days. I've been sleeping all day and doing nothing at night so right now I am, of course, typing this and stealing my little sister's Nintendo DS lite to play Mario!

Now I have a huge urge to find Curious George videos to watch! {Arg}

No longer lonely.

But now I'm missing him when he's gone.
Which is worse? I say lonely.

make a difference!

today i finally got to good will and gave them my
4 huge bags full of plastic bottles, containers, etc.
i was really stoked.

but then i went to waldenbooks and found out
that Dexter In The Dark isnt
coming out until September....

oh shucks.

but anyway i'm happy. :)

things have happened

mom and dad fighting
boyfriend and his dad fighting

i just want to hug all of them and tell them it's okay i'm here
but i can't do anything


i'm sad because theyre all so sad
i'm stuck in a rut.

nothing really i guess

for those who don't know, my mother is a bitch.
she has been nasty to my sister and i ever since we were little.
and today, she was just so mean for no reason. she made me cry.

like two minutes after returning to my room, i get a text from
tanner saying, "come to the lifehouse!"

but i said "no" for some reason.
i have been withdrawing myself from the outside world..

i think it started sunday when i had to buy a notebook for school.
now school is not for another month or so.
but i had to buy it since everyone else was buying their school
supplies and there would be no more 5 star, 5 subject, college-ruled, notebooks.
i'm sort of happy since i got a cool color.
but it was definitely the most depressing thing i've done all summer!

good will

i bought a candle that smells like a boy i am missing
and Prey by Michael Crichton! it was a good day :)

plus today i ran for 15 minutes

Worrying

Finals are coming up which brings terrible things like yucky skin and oily hair. I sure hate finals. Also I finally got the song Worry by Music For Animals! It's just the episode of the podcast that I heard it from but atleast I have it! :)